Ugh.

Some days I just want to leave. Just forget about the world and pack up and go. Just go traveling around the world and go on all kinds of adventures. See all my different internet friends and do stuff with them. Go to England to visit my friends there. Go to China and visit my friend there.

But most of all get on a train and head over to Nebraska to see my soul mate. 

It’s so boring here in Lakeland. All everyone does is smoke weed and get drunk. I don’t mind getting drunk some days, but not every weekend when I’m trying to find a job for myself. 

I have the money to travel. I’ve been saving up since I was little. Now most of the money has been going to gas or for my phone bill or other necessaries. Which is something I’ve been trying to cut back on, but all my friends that I like live so far away from my house.

It’s just… ugh.

I don’t know what’s left for me in this city anymore.

I don’t want to go to college like everyone else. At least, not right now. Not with how everyone likes pushing it on me. It feels like I have to go rather than wanting to go. I don’t like that feeling.

Hell, I don’t even know what I want to go for anymore. I don’t even know what I’m good at either. Blah.

Everyone’s having babies, getting married and living together that I’ve gone with high school with. It’s weird. Why would you want to get settled down now? You should be out exploring! Not staying at home and raising a child at the age of 19. I mean, you can do whatever you want. It’s your life but still. Couldn’t you wait?

Anyway, I just need to rant. Doubt any of you will read this. But that’s ok, because I still love you guys <3